Today is having fun with choir members, we go sing K from 4.30-7.00pm! Is fun , but before this i prefer to go cut my hair the go back home. But dont know why i am going for the MUSICAL DRAMA pratice! Ya, i know that i am not included but if i still sitting at home, i think i will be crazy! Is very boring to sit at home! Nobody to talk to! Just sitting in front of the computer and stoning! All freinds also dont know where are they now! So today i prefer to the MUSICAL DRAMA practice and having fun with them! I'm regret coz i am not joining! Except practice we also got go AJHIMA to eat! Well ROmeo you no need to miss SUET YI until you make yourself  the whole body WET! I know ou very miss her but no need to make yourself wet! =.=

After the practice, we are going to sing K, you know what? We are very boring before go to sing k! We sit at MCD and chit chat! Is very boring, because of we are not enough people so we keep calling our friend come out to accompany us to sing k! But no one is free........ And suddenly KKK is angry, coz of something! I think you all will know about what happen! After we wait for KH to join us, then we go up! WE meet SY and YC there, so we are forcing them to accompany us! But Yc is not joining us, jusy SY! After sing K then we are going home!

When i reach home, WHAT THE HELL! JUST COME IN THEN SCOLD BY MY MOTHER! DONT KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON WITH SHE ! WHEN EATING DINNER SHE TOLD ME  THAT:

MOM:" FROM NEXT YEAR, I WONT LET YOU TO USE THE HOME PHONE,!"

( you know why i am using your phone, because i got important things to confirm! sOmetimes got choir things i also have to cantact to my friends what!")

MOM": FROM NEXT YEAR YOU CALL YOUR DAD TO RELOAD FOR YOU, YOUR HANDPHONE CREDIT!"

( fine i will solve this problem myself!)

MOM:" SINCE I CAME TO KL, I NEVER SAVE ONE SENS FOR MYSELF IN THE BANK! YOUR FATHER ONE MONTHS ONLY SEND RM 400 TO YOU TO USE AND GOYANG KAKI AT THERE! AND I'M  HERE TO TEACHING YOU THIS AND THAT! "

YOU GOT TEACH ME ANYTHING OR NOT? YOU JUST CALL ME TO DO THIS AND DO THAT THEN NO OTHERS! WHEN I TALK TO YOU, YOU SAID I'M VERY FAN! IF I AM NOT TAKING TO YOU, YOU SAID I ALWAYS LIKE DONT LIKE YOU! YOU KNOW NOWADAYS I HAVE NOBODY TO TALK TO! AT SCHOOL ALSO NO BESTFRIEND! THEN I GOT SAD THINGS, ANGRY THINGS I ALSO DONT KNOW WH0 I WANT  TALK TO! I JUST CAN ONLY KEEP IT TO MY HEART! AND NOW YOU TALIKING ALL THOSE THINGS TO ME! YOU THINK I LIKE THIS ? I ALSO DONT LIKE, BUT HOW? FATHER AT SABAH THERE ALSO GOT HIS FAMILY, YOU THINK HE NO NEED MONEY FOR HER TWO SONS FOR HIS WIFE! I REALLY CANNOT TAHAN! I CAN TAHAN YOU UNTIL NOWADAYS I ALSO DONT KNOW WHY! NOW I WANNA CRY! I REALLY REALLY SAD AND TIRED NOW!

                      Finally finish PMR! That is good, but when i'm free i dont know what i want to do! Because before PMR i'm always study and study but aftr PMr nothing to do, just sit in front of the computer and stoning! But is good for me nothing to do, now i can meditation anytime! I can see my buddha's book and enjoy my meditation, haha........ What a good after PMR! I like alone, i do not know why! I just know that i like alone, nobody disturb, nobody talk to me i feel good! I know that i like alone since PMR that week! But i do not know why i like alone! Lonely, i'm mr lonely, i have nobody, i am on my own... wu.......... Haha!! >.<

                    Suddenly today i get something, something told me that why am i always angry, why am i like angry! When i think back when i am angry sure when i think something not happy, but after one hour i din feel angry, it told me that then angry is not mine, i cannot control it, i cannot control when it will come out, and when it will lost! So this show me that why am i angry for this little thing, just those little thing then i feel angry, i felt that i am very stupid! When i am angry i will make a new SIN, so i just think about that i should not angry for those little thing, just those litle thing i felt angry then make a new SIN! I practice meditation is better then i amke a new SIN to crushed my life! So i better meditation to get what i want!

                  Last friday, my last day for PMR i want to thanks for KH because he accompanied me to mv to watch movie ! Thanks guy! I'm still remember what happen on last friday in the cinema. You know what? Sitting beside me those girls is very noisy, when the movie is start until the movie finish they also like memories the scrip of the movie! What the guy in the movie said, they also follow, and always make noisy beside me! Finally i scold them i said " HELO, CAN PLEASE KEEP QUIET! YOU ALL ARE VERY NOISY!". Then they all just keep quiut and nothing to said! :@ Who call you all very noisy, make until i want to scold you! But that day is fun! Thanks KH!

                 Finally i understand why all those pengawas told me CHANDRA and SALBAIH is talking crap! I think they all like to talk crap! Those two teacher also do not know how to teach us! When thet went in to class, is fine they got teach us! But in the half way they all start talking about the school problem, student problem and all those crap! Hey teachers, if you all like to talk crap please do not be teacher ! I felt very dissapointed on you two! Haiz ........ Is fine CHANDRA just teach me for the CLASS KECEMERLANGAN! But SALBIAH! Haiz........ No comment about her, who gave her teach before you all also know what is going on with her! Is very unlucky this year she will teach me! Haiz................

                I felt that i want to quit pengawas, because now i know that inside the pengawas is very complicated! I also do not knoa\w how to explain! And LCM you told me that think before i do something! This sentence is i want to tell you, pls think before you tell me something! You wont care what i tell you, you just tell what you want ot tell me! You never listen to my reason! Why i want to quit pengawas i also  got my reason! Ya you are true, i have to care about the group! But i do not think so! YOu can say me why am i like this, like that! Whatever you want to talk about! Now i am just telling you that, i will letak jawatan! until here i also wanna to tell all choir member, next year i wont joing choir, because you all is giving me many problem! Last two friday, no people come to choir just those littke people! Pls when next time no choir practice pls tell earlier!

               Well i am enjoy my free life now! No choir, no prefect, no study! Just only meditation, see books and go GAI GAI! Haha.... i am enjoy my life! I like this feel, no ppl disturb! WAU ! Is good for me! I feel good now! Next two weeks i have to go back to SANDAKAN! I'm waiting that day coming! Because i do not like KL !  Kl is not suitable for me! But Sandakan is !